Bipolar Prayers

How do you pray when you aren’t sure that your heart’s desire is God’s plan for you?

I prayed a lot of those prayers when I felt God calling me into missions. “Lord, you know what you’re doing, but are you sure?”

“Lord, I’m willing to follow but please make it clear.” And so on and so on and so on. There’s a weird balance between trusting in the sovereignty of God and expressing the desires of your heart to Him. I believe that we can chat to God about anything. That He is the friend that listens better than anyone else. But as I look to the future, I find myself praying these prayers again.

“God, I really think is right, but I trust you if it’s not going to work. You know better, but please. Or You know the better timing. But I think this is what You are telling me. But just take over please.”

You kind of end up sounding like someone who can’t make up their own mind. And maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe you should be letting God decide the path anyway and just following it.

But, man, sometimes it’s hard to see the path, especially when you want to climb the mountain your way, with what is within your heart. I wonder if God sits there chuckling as we scramble through some of these times. Not in a malicious way, just in that way that you watch someone who is borderline freaking out trying to do 4 things at the same time.

So I’ll say it one last time. “God just take over and light the next step please.”


May he grant you your heart’s desire and fulfill all your plans!  Psalm 20:4

He fulfills the desire of those who fear him; he also hears their cry and saves them. Psalm 145:19

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.  Pslam 37:4

And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith. Matt 21:22

One Response to “Bipolar Prayers”

  1. c laudia says:

    I can so relate. I have no idea how God wants to use my nursing

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